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every chance i didn't take II

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Daily Deviation

July 15, 2014
"The tone of this piece, every chance i didn't take II by SuddenlyAutumn, fantastically conveys resignation and nonchalance, contrasting beautifully with the raw poetry of the words themselves. It's a breathtaking piece that leaves the reader wondering and thinking."
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You tell him about your cancer on a Sunday,
in the shower of all places, in between brunch plans
and speculations about whether or not the weather
will ever get any colder - hasn't it been the strangest November?
Just the strangest.

You casually mention that somewhere
deep in the secret space between your hips
your own cells are proliferating uncontrollably,
whispering treason and passing down forgeries,
teaching each other the steps of mitosis with alarming intent.

You don't miss a beat as you drop survival percentages
mixed in with tomorrow's rain forecast
and predictions about the game later that afternoon -
easy as breathing, even as counterfeit armies
shred through the soft tissue just below
his favorite place on your spine.

And as you stand there
calmly making conversation
and sharing the last of the soap,
he watches the water
run quiet rivers
through your hair.
moved from journal.

he leaves you on a quiet thursday
you love him like a fever gone cold

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i can.not. begin to tell you all how much the kindness surrounding this piece has touched my heart. it was one of the hardest things i've written, about one of the loneliest moments of my life. i still ache thinking about it. 

there are bitter days and there are better days. on the better days, i write about not being ready to cut all of my hair off or settle down. those days sound like this

you all are dearly loved :heart:

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hopeburnsblue's avatar
Oh my word, this is heartbreaking and gorgeous and so real, and I love it. Congrats on the DD!