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February 28


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You tell him about your cancer on a Sunday,
in the shower of all places, in between brunch plans
and speculations about whether or not the weather
will ever get any colder - hasn't it been the strangest November?
Just the strangest.

You casually mention that somewhere
deep in the secret space between your hips
your own cells are proliferating uncontrollably,
whispering treason and passing down forgeries,
teaching each other the steps of mitosis with alarming intent.

You don't miss a beat as you drop survival percentages
mixed in with tomorrow's rain forecast
and predictions about the game later that afternoon -
easy as breathing, even as counterfeit armies
shred through the soft tissue just below
his favorite place on your spine.

And as you stand there
calmly making conversation
and sharing the last of the soap,
he watches the water
run quiet rivers
through your hair.
moved from journal.

he leaves you on a quiet thursday
you love him like a fever gone cold


i can.not. begin to tell you all how much the kindness surrounding this piece has touched my heart. it was one of the hardest things i've written, about one of the loneliest moments of my life. i still ache thinking about it. 

there are bitter days and there are better days. on the better days, i write about not being ready to cut all of my hair off or settle down. those days sound like this

you all are dearly loved :heart:

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Given 2014-07-15
"The tone of this piece, every chance i didn't take II by SuddenlyAutumn, fantastically conveys resignation and nonchalance, contrasting beautifully with the raw poetry of the words themselves. It's a breathtaking piece that leaves the reader wondering and thinking." ( Suggested by SpiralingSpontaneity and Featured by IrrevocableFate )
Echolalic-Ellie Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist Writer
This is just beautiful. :heart:
SuddenlyAutumn Featured By Owner 4 days ago
thank you so much :love:
Echolalic-Ellie Featured By Owner 14 hours ago  Hobbyist Writer
Karinta Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2014  Student General Artist
Amazing.... :hug:
SuddenlyAutumn Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2014
thank you so much :huggle:
artbyfieldsofsage Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Absolutely beautiful!  Congrats on the DD!  Well deserved!
SuddenlyAutumn Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2014
thank you so much :love:
artbyfieldsofsage Featured By Owner 2 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You are so very welcome:)
BulmaBriefs050401 Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2014
(Absolutely beautiful and breath-taking. I love the words you chose to describe the nonchalant feel of this. Having a grandfather with lung cancer, this really moved me. I started tearing up at the end, how it seemed he was stunned but also nonchalant about it as well....when she could possibly lose her chance of holding the rope. Absolutely beautiful, continue writing, please, please, continue writing. You grace the world in so many ways with this piece and I'm sure you shall be with others.)
SuddenlyAutumn Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014
thank you so very much for reading and for your kinds words. it is so easy to feel alone in life but writing makes it less lonely and people like you make everything feel like it will be ok.

i hope you and your grandfather are well :heart:
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